Biggest nightmare ever!!!!!
Really regret what i have done!!!
I didnt know it is so serious,if i knew it earlier on i will not do it!!!!
It is a phobia for me now...I am really scared....really scared!!!
Yes, what your have been telling me is correct...things that are done is done...What i got to do is to accept the fact...No more shedding!!!
I swear i will never step into such places again!!!!NEVER!!
I don't want to ruin my life, i am scared!!!FEAR!!!!
There are so many things that i want to do and yet i have not fulfilled it..
I am scared!!!!

Upset upset upset!!!!!
No one to turn to....
No one to share with....
Everything changes just because of you entering my life....
Is it a good sign or a bad sign????
i don't know who to share with....I hate this lifestyle of mine.
I want to change to be a better.
Once i leaned a little by a little ...i wanted to rely more..
And i too greedy???
Yes, i think i am...
Greedy hurts me ...
I always tried to hold back myself.Is a kinda afraid !!!!
perhaps it might be a self protection of getting hurts.....
Simply hurts.....

sorry ...there is still no trust ....

Swollen Eye...

Poor me.... =( kinda pain and itchy.. Help me please.......!!!Is been 2 DAYS already.....

Please recover fast!!! is so uglyyyyyyy....It seem like it is getting worse each day.....Think is time for me to go for doctor......I can't stand it anymore.........Off for doctor....................

Sob sob.............Kinda expensive........Eye infection..... Just 1 cream and 1 antibiotic it cost me $36......EXPENSIVE!!!!!

Happy Birthday in advanced to Eileen Cheng...
Though is about 9 days earlier...
Hahas....
Hope you enjoy....
Loves you babe!!


Birthday Girl-Eileen cheng....Sky Rider..--->Shilin and hui2Huihui and eileen...

Cam-whored..

Eileen and hui... Mine and eileen...lols.We 2 got nothing better to do....

Back view of us with some _ _ _ _ _...Wahahas...

Eileen: you should know how to fill in the blank ???lols..

We couldn't stop laughing when someone shouted out...

Opps,didn't take any photo of weiping...

sorry gal ya.. =)

I know you won't blame me right??

Hahas...

Big girl don't cry........

A BIG BIG "Sorry" to one of my best friend.
I know i am not perfect.
I'm selfish...
I dislike my selfish act.
Perhaps is the word "afraid"
Hope you will forgive me.
Am feeling better after telling you all instead of hiding it from you.
Don't know why i felt guilty after picking up m...ey call.
Think because of her words....................
Gal, trust me i am willing to share it with you now.
No more "selfish thinking" and "afraid" gonna appear in my
dictionary over a small matter.
There is give ,there is take.
No need to understand it.
I tell you because i don't wanna hide anything from you as you are my
best friend.
Not wanting you to act out or ....
I just want to be frank with you. =)
Loves ya.

A off day for me again...Hahas...
Got my result today..
Kinda statisfied with it.
Got to thank ....... for help.
Thank thank!!! =)
Boring,holiday still gonna go back sch for some briefing later..
Off day gonna burned..

Happy 21st Birthday to Joslina....
Kinda sleepy now to talk about today..
Will just let the photo to summarise the day....
Thank baby for taking these photo..

I think i have catch a cold!

Since ytd i'm feeling unwell!!!

It was so sunny now and yet i'm feeling cold.

Running nose,sore throat all are coming...................

Please please go away!!!!!

Gonna catch curse of the deserted with jasmine,sukping and seeying later...

Bye....

Off to move~~~

Back at tangs today!!!
I'm super tired right now....
Is been quite a long time for working long hours again......
Gonna get used to it again...

Indefinitely,not probably...
And honestly,I'm down like the economy.

Down down down......................

Troubled troubled troubled......

Was feeling upset for the whole day today.

Am feeling better now after tears down... :)

Is a sunny day again...

Had my QC and A test today.
Is another last paper i see for this semester.
It wasn't easy at all. :(
Anyway is OVER!!!
Yeah,finally can relax abit after two days of study.
Had our lab after test.
Today lab was special.
Why do i say so???
cause......no need to do report.
Cheering in the air........
Hahas.

Time killing while waiting for aspirin to crystallize............Photo photo photo....

Since when xiaoyi photo was in my phone?Must be taken by lifen!!!

Cause you were the only one who walks around with my phone.hahas.

The 2 expert!!

Shall stop here.Gonna go for movie with eileen later on.xoxo~

Gonna have my PED test later.
Finally last paper for PED.YEAH!!!!
I'm kinda worried now.
Afraid that i might fail.
Don't know why.
Perhaps not enough of preparation?
Wish me luck k?
Shall stop here!

Been staying at home today.
Think i gonna become pig soon.
Taken nap twice a day today.hahas
Still not enough of sleep.
Study a little for PED.
Tml gonna be the last PED paper i will see for this semester.
Hoping it will be easy.

Got back my ped test today.
Guess what i got?
lols.Is a "B".
Lucky not a "F" again.
Study and without study really make a big difference in grade.
Exam are round the corner and yet i'm not in a mood to start my revised.
Haix....

Why am i so stupid to let go people who is treating me good?
Why why why?
Is seems that history always repeats.
Though ....... might affect me a little,i just need time to let go.
Perhaps,he still owe me an answer?That why i'm trapped in there for so long.
Is been such a lonnnng time and yet i still didn't let go.
I just want to be truthful.
How stupid am i.But i am trying hard to let go.
I hate it!
When now i want to treasure everything,it just seem so difficult for me.
How can i get over with it?
Can someone tell me what to do?
Who can i turn to?
Did something i shouldn't have done!
I'm sorry!
Thousand and billion of sorry!!!!

Is time for me to let go off my past.

HAPPY BIRTHAY TO SHILIN!!!


Though is a simple celebration but i hope you enjoyed it.:)loves loves to you!!!bleahx.Hahax,you are now 20 le.Wish you all the best in everthing you do!!

Movie---->9 temple,kinda of confused???Don't really get the picture of nat???And that wried dream that the mum had dreamt about in the beginning???No linked to the story!!!


Went to bishan to had our dinner after that.
Head to shilin home for cut cake and gambling session and soccer match watching.
WTH,eileen and me should not have bet on agentina!!

Gotta wried feelng right now!!!
Why do i seem so troubled???
I don't even know why I'm like that??
What that stupid thing that stuck in my heart that make me feel so uncomfortable???
Even i myself also don't know!!!!
i felt that i have changed??
Becoming more selfish?
Or i'm scared that i might make some stupid decision which i know i will regret for life and yet i'm going ahead with it??
I just feel like crying out loud now like no body business.
Though crying doesn't solved problem but it does helps to make you feel better!
Do you guys agree?
Is time for me to sleep!!
Still got to wake up early tml.

Have a dinner with desmond and all before he gets into the army on coming friday.
Wow,boon was so generous,is his treat.
Though is a tiring day but i enjoyed it.
Missing those days spent in school with you guys.
All those lame lame joke.
Laughing out loud together,being scolded together.
Walking from school to expo just to have lunch.
Etc and etc...............



Desmond reading the card with all our comment.
Touching anot?lols.