Biggest nightmare ever!!!!!
Really regret what i have done!!!
I didnt know it is so serious,if i knew it earlier on i will not do it!!!!
It is a phobia for me now...I am really scared....really scared!!!
Yes, what your have been telling me is correct...things that are done is done...What i got to do is to accept the fact...No more shedding!!!
I swear i will never step into such places again!!!!NEVER!!
I don't want to ruin my life, i am scared!!!FEAR!!!!
There are so many things that i want to do and yet i have not fulfilled it..
I am scared!!!!

Upset upset upset!!!!!
No one to turn to....
No one to share with....
Everything changes just because of you entering my life....
Is it a good sign or a bad sign????
i don't know who to share with....I hate this lifestyle of mine.
I want to change to be a better.
Once i leaned a little by a little ...i wanted to rely more..
And i too greedy???
Yes, i think i am...
Greedy hurts me ...
I always tried to hold back myself.Is a kinda afraid !!!!
perhaps it might be a self protection of getting hurts.....
Simply hurts.....

sorry ...there is still no trust ....